Vibrancy

This fall has been a season of vibrancy. Circumstances, events, the motives of others, and my own motives have become clearer in this season. I am realizing that each season of my life gives way to another season and then yet another season. When I hold tightly to fixed outcomes or rummage through past events to rework the outcome, expecting a different result, I am left with pain, anger, and self-judgement again and again, each time going deeper and deeper into a pit of hopelessness.

But when I let go of what could have been and embrace what is, I am able to embrace my own self, sit with my pain, acknowledge my anger, and be present to what is. It may not feel comforting at first, but eventually I sense that I am not alone in this season.  The fall air becomes crisp, the trees start to reveal their truest colors, the sounds of animals rustle through the trees to find food for winter, and one by one the leaves fall to the ground reminding me that it is ok to let go of what has been. In letting go of what has been, there is a taking hold of what is.

How long it takes for one leaf to let go, I do not know. But I guess its different for all of us.

I’m reminded that letting go for all of us looks different.  One may let go by embracing silence, another by speaking up,  another by decluttering, and still another by changing scenery.

Wherever you are and whatever season you are in, be present to it. Presence has the potential to transform you from the inside out.

There is vibrancy in the present.